Monday, August 2, 2010

Another day. Another Useless phone call.

Doctor said she needs to take the same antibiotic for 5 days, twice a day, again.

I posted this on Facebook:

"Nababaliw na ko sa mga doctors ng mom ko. We're going in circles. I don't know what else there is to say or do. Be strong, keep it up---things people tell you pag wala nang solution. Cancer sucks."

People are telling me to pray, let God do his thing, 'hang in there'…. God, I don't understand shit like this. Mother, what shall I do with you? Like, she's still the same. If you talk to her, she's still the same person, it's like nothing's wrong with her. But in reality, she's actually dying. And she's about to die. And I fucking cannot handle it. If I can, I just wanna stay away from her. Lord knows, HINDI KO SYA MAIWAN. I can't tell her to 'go'… I can't. What am I supposed to do with my life after this? What shall I do with you, mother?